There's too much going on in my head;

I want everything to stop and rewind to last year and never having any memory of this year. It sucks so badly every night I pray for it to just disappear. When will the sufferings end? I miss all my old friends, I miss everyone in 1 cengal. We all bonded so well. Everyone of us talked to each other (: I want it back.

So anyways, today I learned in Sunday school about the key to happiness. I personally liked this topic. I mean all this time I've been trying to make myself happier but I always fail and for once I actually listened in Sunday school (:

So the real question here is:-

Is happiness something that has to be learned?
Yeah, in fact it is. Well most people may think otherwise. Instead they believe that happiness is having what they want when they want it. All of us wish for happiness, it's like our one true desire in life; to be happy. Well have you ever felt not fully satisfied after you've gotten what you wanted? Cause I've felt that way before. Like there's this empty feeling inside? Maybe it's too small to notice but it's there. All the time.

It takes wisdom and goodness to know where real happiness lies. Sometimes we find happiness; sometimes we don't.

I found happiness in my friends. It's fun to be around them but somehow there's still something missing. I feel happy but inside I'm still sad.
I'm so sick and tired of being sad all the time. It's like 24/7 sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad. Everyone is getting sad nowadays. I can tell that Ian ain't always happy inside. And Joey's pain, it's like I can feel it for her. There's too much sorrow among us. I wish I could change things.

Joey and Ian are awesome friends not to mention HuiJune as well ((:

I won't hate you for what you didn't do. I brought this onto myself. But you're still leaving me hanging here. You can't avoid forever. And the more you avoid, the bigger this hate for you is gonna grow. So I only have one thing for you, get the hell out of my life.

FML
eatshitbetch.